Poison & Wine

Ama bazen, bazi seyler olur, ve o bazi seyler bazi hislerin yonunu yine degistiriverir.. Ruzgarin yonu degisince de, kapilip gitmekten baska bir sey gelmez bazen..

Bazen..

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You only know what I want you to
I know everything you don't want me to
Oh your mouth is poison, your mouth is wine
You think your dreams are the same as mine
Oh I don't love you, but I always will
Oh I don't love you, but I always will

I wish you'd hold me when I turn my back
The less I give the more I get back
Oh your hands can heal, your hands can bruise
I don't have a choice, but I'd still choose you

Oh I don't love you, but I always will

I always will..

Let her go

Bazen "gercekten" guzel olana ulasmak icin, guzel olduguna "inandiklarinin" ucunu birakmayi ogrenmek gerek sanirim. Fikrini sordugun onlarca kisinin umutsuz ama umut vermeye calisan hallerini gormezden gelmeyi bir kenara birakmak... Daha da onemlisi, surekli geri gelen o huzun dalgalarini saliselik mutluluklar ugruna kabullenmemek gerektigini anlamak... Bitirmeye onun gucu yetmiyorsa, bitirmeyi bilmek gerek. Kacinilmaz olarak melankoli gelince de, o cok sevdigini soyledigi sarkiyi her dinlediginde seni dusunmesini icten ice dileyip, sarkiyi ust uste bilmem kac kez dinleyip uyuyakalmak gerek. Ta ki bir gun sarkinin sozleri herhangi bir sarki sozu olana kadar.

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You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies
But you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast
Only know you've been high when you feel low
Only hate the road when you are missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go..

Waves

Yuzumu durup dururken kaplayan aptal gulucuk, insanlarin "sende bir sey var ama..." diyen bakislari, ya da direkt gelip bunu soyleyenler, bir anda aklima gelen onceki gunden guzel bir an, sarkilara anlam yukleme oyunu (hic eskimez), surekli bidi bidi konusma istegi (tamam bu genel olarak sahip oldugum bir ozellik), hafif paranoyak haller, biraz da hiperaktiflik/eli ayagi yerinde duramama, kontrollu halden biraz uzaklasma (gevseme mi desem), sac bas makyaj hallerindeki inanilmaz toparlanma, genel ask rutinime son 5 senede eklenmis olan whatsapp'ta son gorunme saatine on dakikada bir bakmaca (ve zamanin onarli dakikalar halinde akmasini saglamaca), degil gun icinde saatler hatta dakikalar icersinde dalgalanan hisler. Ve de bitecek gibi oldugu anlardaki tarifi zor haller...

Asik olmayi ozledim sanirim. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pUjE9H8QlA4 

My face above the water
My feet can't touch the ground
Touch the ground, and it feels like
I can see the sands on the horizon
Every time you are not around
I'm slowly drifting away.
Drifting away...
Wave after wave, wave after wave
I'm slowly drifting away.
Drifting away...